I have been meaning to write about things. Things that come to my mind when I'm walking around. Many times those are ideas about games, how they are made, what they mean to me. I also like to think I can tell where things are going even when I don't really.
I believe that what I want to say is worthwile. Sadly, I used to be able to speak about all these kind of things more easily with people around me during college. The world is big and there's a lot of cool people out there I would like to reach out to, just not sure what's the best way to start. The thing is, I'm not a very good writer, not good at expressing myself and following the ideas that just end up making more sense inside of my mind. And recently I'm realizing that it is an important thing to have and I guess the best way to improve it a bit is by doing.
So yeah, I want to get better at writing.
Now, why english? Well, we can't really fight against the de facto lingua franca of 2024 can we? It still makes me a bit uncomfortable, makes me feel agringado. But I guess my desire to put my ideas out and have them reach more people is bigger than whatever self-consciousness I feel right now.
I have for a long time 'tried to do things the right way'. And now, after a few years, its obvious that was just some dumb self-sabotage disguised as perfectionism.
There are plenty of things I want to do. Many times I started working on them seriously, and then get distracted with 'optimization', worrying about something not being good enough before putting it out and then wasting a lot of time 'fixing' it. I don't want to keep falling on that trap. So I want to just say fuck it and upload it.
I guess we can try little by little, something each week. We start like that.
I really have tried many times before to start. Make drafts. But wait, how do I publish it? What framework to use? Is the design ok?. But if you are not me, and you are reading this. Then the mission is complete. Hello world. This is barebones HTML on a static file. ｆｕｃｋｉｔ．
The thing is, I didn't use to be like this. I didn't fall to these traps. I heard advice not to fall on these traps a long time ago. Back a few years ago I used to just do things and see where they led me. And it used to work pretty good. Makes me really wonder where did I left my balls the last time.
How about making a regional smash bros. tournament with my friends? We did it. We didn't know a single thing about making events but we just figured it out on the way. How about making some android game? Yeah, don't know a thing about programming back then but just watch some tutorials until something comes out. It was hacky, and messy and lots of fun. And I want it back.
But now it's scary to think that time is slipping away and I'm just here avoiding to start doing the things I really want to do. Don't want it to be like that. So here I am. Even if nobody reads it, it should be a reminder to myself.
I'm KY, I like flashy lights and mashy buttons. And I like it even more when the mashy buttons make the lights flashy. It should be that simple.
2024/01/30